我會從這部風車旋轉型的自動攪珠機抽出你下輩子會到哪裡。你會去意大利，聽說哪裡的足球不錯。
Your destination of next life is decided by this lottery machine. And you are going to Italy, go and play some soccer!
Wow! Ciao Ciao! Pizza, spaghetti, Gelato, I am coming!
你會去美國，不要吃得太胖。
You are going to the U.S. Don’t forget to do some more exercise; otherwise you are going to be fat.
Super Bowl XLIV, Indiana Colts!!
中國呢，可幸的是你有飽飯吃，其餘的不要說太多了。
Congrats that you get rice, but you are not suppose to talk too much in this country.
能討活的話，其他都不理了。
Born to be an economic animal and nothing political…
你必須變得強悍才可以保命。
Oh boy, you have to be really tough to survive.
Smile to every challenges.
作為一個女生，你在這個國家會學會忍耐非凡人所能忍耐的。
As a woman, you will learn to bear something unbearable in this country.
……
God bless you.
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世界上有一群仍然為生存而掙扎的人，相比起他們，我們是幸福的。但是我不喜歡這一種比較得來的幸福，我覺得太殘酷了。沒錯，這樣我會更加珍惜自己擁有的，但是同樣我會罪疚。麻木的人會說我們值得擁有因為我們有更高的智慧，謀生技能，文化修養，道德層次，一切順理成章理所當然？其實純粹是我們幸運地降落在一個比較富裕的地方，一個地球資源比較集中的範圍，我們佔用了別人的配額，吃了人家分兒，享受了部份人這輩子也沒有奢望過的生活。
小時候我太飽吃不下時，媽媽會說非洲的兒童沒有飯吃，但是強行吃下本來吃不下的飯菜對事情有幫助嗎？我想要分得開，我不想要有罪疚感的幸福，我的幸福是要源自純粹的欣賞，珍惜，感恩。沒錯，比較差的人讓我學會更珍惜，然而比較別人的話我們可以是十分幸運，也可以是十分不幸，這個世界有幸運得像擁有全世界的，也有不幸得終日生存權利受威脅的，單向地比較差的或好的也不好，這種比較其實也沒有什麼準確的，世上也沒有一樣東西叫幸福值吧，我不要偽客觀比較得來的幸福。這種比較可以做的只是驅動我幫助有需要的人，這是佔了別人分兒的義務。
至於我的幸福，不是比較得來的，說簡單不簡單，說難也不太難，只是跟我珍惜和珍惜我的人在一起，明確一點的目標是成家立室再帶孩子到黃石公園跑山看黑熊去。這是純粹由心而發，可能有點拙劣，但不罪疚。
There are many people still struggling for their survival in the world. We are doing good compare to them. We got food, water, entertainment and everything. But I really don’t like this kind of content feeling come by comparison. Knowing about the situation of them would make me treasure about what I own more, but I also have a guilt feeling.
People with apathetic mind might say we deserve it because we are more intelligent, we got skills, and we have higher culture sense and moral standard. But no, we are only lucky enough to land on an abundant country, a place that resources of the earth concentrated. We occupied the quota of others, we ate the proportion of others, and we enjoy the lifestyle that someone in the other sides of the world did not even imagined to have. When I was small, mum told me kids in the Africa are starving when I was too full and refuse to eat some more. Is that finishing the whole big bowl of rice helps the situation in third world countries?
I would like to split it up in my mind. I don’t want my happiness linked with guilty feeling. My content feeling comes from appreciation, treasure and grace. Of course, comparing those worse than me would make me treasure more. While we could be fabulously content or absolutely nothing when we are comparing to others, some people are rich enough as if they own the whole world and some people’s survival right are threatened in everyday life. It is stupid to simply comparing to those better or worse off. There is no standard meter to evaluate content or happiness objectively. The comparison made me know about my responsibility to help those in need.
And about my happiness, it’s all subjective and does nothing with comparison. It could be easy, it could be difficult, it’s about to be with the ones I treasure and treasure me. I have a goal, to have my own family and bring my kids to yellow stone state park, running in the mountain, and say hello to the black bears. It’s impulsive and a bit silly, but it doesn’t bring any guilt feeling.
劇場版 Special Episode
1850s
你會到君主制下的香港，但山高皇帝遠，過一過水上人家的生活平平淡淡也不錯。
You are going to live in Hong Kong under monarchy, but the emperor is far enough to let you have a peaceful life.
1950s
香港雖然是殖民地，洋鬼子有很大的權，可是你努力還是有機會的，置業安家，養妻活兒絕對不成問題，運氣好的話發財也說不定呢。
Hong Kong is colony of Britain, so the British hold the power. But return to your effort is guaranteed. Having a home, feeding family won’t be a problem. And you can be rich if you are lucky enough.
馬照跑，舞照跳！
Horseracing and dancing never die!
1980s
香港將不再是殖民地，但你還是不見得有什麼權。政府跟商家關係十分良好，上一代地產佬響你出世之前就碌爆你張咭，你置業安家等如同佢做一世奴隸。你讀得多書肯搏肯捱，做一世騾仔生活大概安穩，但係發圍上位就一定冇你份。
Hong Kong is no longer a colony, but your voice is neglected still. The government and the businessmen are good friend. Those property developers had already overdrawn your account before your birth. Even If you buy a tiny apartment with 600 square feet, you have to be their slave for half of your life. Even if you studied hard and worked hard for your whole life, you can have a stable life, but to stand out this the place is nothing related to you.
正仆街！
Damn that Donald Duck!
Sorry for my poor drawing. It’s drawn by me this time. :p
February 1st, 2010
Click here-Larry Platt - Memorable auditions-Click here.
Pants on the ground
Pants on the ground
Lookin’ like a fool with you pants on the ground
Gold in your mouth
Hat turned sideways, pants hit the ground
Call yourself a cool cat looking like a fool
Walking down town with yo pants on the ground
get it up!!
HEY! got your pants off the ground
lookin like a fool, walkin talking
with you pants on the ground
get it up
hey get them pants off the ground
Lookin’ like a fool with you pants on the ground
Gold in your mouth
Hat turned sideways, pants hit the ground
Call yourself a cool cat looking like a fool
Lookin’ like a fool with you pants on the ground
(repeat)
Source(s):
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January 22nd, 2010
互聯網利害之處，在於能把世界各地資訊超越時空，地域的界限共冶於一爐。上世紀的歷史，那邊中東打仗，那邊冰川溶化，達賴訪美高舉勝利手勢的畫面，甘地的名言以至匿名網民的評論，按動滑鼠都看到，聽到。連貫著網站與網民的，是網頁搜尋器，沒有這個，網頁都是一堆支離破碎的數據。Google，世界有名的網頁搜尋器說要離開中國，說真的，輸不了。網頁搜尋器的目標就是盡可能把所有的網站應要求一一放到用家面前。進了中國，要自我審查，這個不可以，那個不容許，互聯網的犀利不就是夠多嗎？Google強就不是強在把這樣多的東西帶到人面前嗎？外國的，即時的，敏感的，加了制肘的Google，就如同叮噹沒有了隨意門，法寶仍在，可拿手好戲沒有了，還有用，但不是最有用，對付胖虎可能有點吃力。
這一次Google一舉化身成網絡自由的代言人，挑戰中共權威，對自我審查說不，勇氣可加，既然一直以來在中國利潤佔全球不大，放手一搏有何不可？贏的機會說實話，不大。當中牽涉的政治問題，中共政府拒絕面對幾十年的，看來不會賣谷哥的帳翻出來。輸？最多退出，或是還原基本步，輸得不多，自由這個普世價值一直為已發展國家唱頌，這幾天Google能在世界各地新聞高擺正義姿態，輸得這麼帥，這麼受人愛戴，有何不可？
除了網絡自由的代言人，維權人士的保鑣也當了。我也試過在內地網咖看關於六四回顧的電郵後不久帳號被封了，忘了什麼啟動碼的便乾脆開個新的。Google一直說有駭客攻擊維權人士的電郵帳號，沒有指名道姓說是誰，可誰會在意維權人士的電郵內容？內地憤青要查他們家宅，挖他們家的祖墳，姦他們太祖母的屍嗎？不大可能吧。至於真兇是誰，不是的不會說，是的不敢說。重點是維權人士的電郵內容沒有被偷看到，好了，他們的人生安全大概得到保障。當然救人之餘亦不忘自助，看Google網絡的保安，成功抵抗如此國家級駭客入侵，保障客戶私隱，商業客戶大可放心了吧。
不知道是神來之筆還是危機應變，這一著盡顯膽識，展示公司技術，忠於企業原則操守，宣揚國家以至普世價值。
輸？輸在哪？
Batman without Batman Car
Internet, bringing the second revolution to the world after the industrial revolution, links people to people, people to information with no limitation of time and place. By few clicks on the mouse, you can reach the history of the last century, war happens in Middle East, the melting glaciers in North Pole, Dalai Lama showing the V sign when he was visiting United States, words of Gandhi or even comments of an anonymous surfer.
And the key tying websites and internet users to each other is the search engine. Without the search engine, web pages are nothing but pieces of data. Google, the largest search engine in the world say Goodbye to China? They have nothing to lose.
The mission of search engine is to put all the pages to the monitor according to users’request. When Google enter China, there is self-censorship, this is not allowed and that is prohibited.
Isn’t the Internet revolutionary because of its hyper-rich content? And isn’t Google good at bringing as much as it could to people? Foreign news, breaking news, sensitive issues and everything, the self-censored Google is like the Batman without Batman car. He is still good, but his favorite trick is lost. He has to take more time to beat the joker up.
This time, Google served as the spokesperson of online freedom, acting against the China communist party, its bravery is already adorable. If the gain in China only occupied little proportion of its global profit, why don’t they give a try? Honestly, don’t expect too much on this bet. The unsettled political problem for twenty years will not be revised because of Google.
However, the worst situation is quitting the restrictive China market or return to the basic, there is nothing to loss. Freedom as the common value of the world has always been praised among developed countries and Google is like the synonym of justice, online freedom on the news around the world these days. Lose with such a good image, why not?
Other than the representative of online freedom, Google is also the protector of those human rights activists. I have tried my Gmail account being blocked when I was reading news about VIIV in mainland China, and I forgot about the activation keys so I just register for a new one. Google claims that there are Chinese hackers trying to break into the accounts of human rights activists, they never name out who did it. Those hyper patriotic angry youth on the Forums? Are they going to have a home visit to human rights activists? Probably not. Who’s in behind is not a big deal. If the answer is yes, they don’t dare to say it. If the answer is no, they won’t say it. The point is the email content of those human rights activists is safe and no one broke into it. It proofed security system and crisis management of Google can protect clients’ data from the attacks in national scale. The privacy of clients is guaranteed, and the business customer can trust on Google.
No matter what, this move shows the guts of the company, performs the technology of the company and its support to freedom. There is really nothing to lose.
Special thanks to my brother drawing the picture.
January 16th, 2010
做好自己。Keep on fighting to be a better man! 
January 2nd, 2010
青色的小鞋子
在小時候, 爸爸媽媽便曾為我穿上這雙青色的鞋。這照片的造型是父母用心替自己打辦的, 穿上青色鞋子的我亦一直置於家中顯眼的位置。青色是我其中一款偏好的顏色, 在其他人眼裡, 青色的鞋可能是奇怪的, 可我小時候就這樣穿的了, 還有什麼好怪呢?
喜歡上奇異果
在私立學校讀書時, 說真的並不好受。整間學校也沒有讀書的氣氛的, 雖然我從來不是愛讀書的人, 但為了前途, 沒辦法也要硬著頭皮去讀。很遺憾在我讀過的班別中, 勤力的往往是畸胎, 有時候是會被孤立或譏笑的。那時候在網上看過一個小故事, 奇異果與幾隻雞蛋放在雪櫃裡, 奇異果作為少數被雞蛋嘲諷著, 說它長得毛茸茸, 怪模怪樣的, 但是呢, 奇異果本來就是與雞蛋不同的嘛。我自覺是奇異果, 在超級市場買了一個來吃, 酸澀的, 就像被嘲諷, 孤獨時的心情, 多吃一口, 酸酸甜甜的好味道。自己覺得是正確的事, 默默地埋頭苦幹, 哪管有時成為被錯放於雞蛋旁的kiwi, 最後也會找到自己的價值。酸酸甜甜的奇異果, 其實很好吃。
這是兩項鮮為人知的源由。沒有人是奇怪的, 只要用心理解他的過去, 哪個發展也是順著前進。
November 12th, 2009
10252. This number had been stopped for more than a year. And I always want this number continue to grow, hope that I still have the chance. I care!
November 7th, 2009
The old one had been blocked by Gmail for no reason…And I just got a new one…But the contacts, chat history had all been gone… 
Kindly remind everyone to backup some important email…
October 23rd, 2009
信我個腦 - 28th September, 2009
照相機只是工具, 腦海裡的回憶才是最重要。好一會沒有照相, 是懶了, 是沒有甚麼特別想照的, 也是想更留心聆聽身邊的。旅行也好, 聚會也好, 照片真的重要嗎? 拿著笨重的照相機, 透過小小的取景窗看東西, 不太舒服, 倒不如好好的用雙眼見證, 用身體去體驗最真實。我相信我的腦袋, 都把回憶好好收在腦袋。照相機嗎? 有空用來把玩一下好了。
病到就死 - December, 2008
我會記著醫院的晚上, 身體疲乏, 腦袋活躍, 想像把氛圍變得可怕, 漆黑的病房, 周遭是白布圍著的病床, 時不時會有咳嗽聲和奇怪的呼吸聲傳出, 恍惚之間好像有人影經過。對不起, 我真的很怕鬼, 良久才鼓起勇氣拖著鹽水架上廁所。想像力煎熬下, 我輾轉了幾個小時才能入睡。 第二天早上, 喝什麼瀉藥, 打什麼針, 都沒有什麼大不了。重要的是, 知道誰關心我。
助人自助 - 23rd May, 2009
背包中帶著羽絨衣, 睡袋, 乾糧, 個人衛生用品登上飛機到四川。機上想著六天旅程中想去做, 應該去做的事。現實跟想像很不同, 羽絨衣在每天早上的山路旅程用不著, 睡袋得水磨小學社工站的細心打點下派不上用場, 乾糧在小學飯堂的嬸嬸熱情款待下胃納容不下, 至於沐浴露、洗髮露等, 在缺水的環境下根本用不上。
幸運的是, 想去做的是為小學的學生帶來歡樂, 在家訪中表達貼心的關懷也做得到, 這一趟總算無憾。雖然當中也有一點波折, 如第一天便堵了整天車, 家訪時下著大雨走那泥濘滿佈的路, 得司機的幫助, 蔡姐的招待, 小學生們作嚮導, 還有隊員之間互相扶持, 最後也能一一克服。
經過地震的遺址, 看到倒塌了的房屋的確讓人神傷。震後的遺址有些被開發成旅遊景點一樣, 當中又包括的沉重的道德反思。可是, 水磨的村民都在為生活積極地努力著, 村民之間互相幫助重建房屋, 坐著一起有說有笑, 他們說災難後村民的關係都緊密了。在學校, 學生都珍惜學習的機會。楊溥, 第一天引路的五年級學生, 說他要走上一個半小時的山路才可以到學校。在我家訪時幫一位同學洗校服時, 他在旁督促著我, 說要洗乾淨一點,跟他有談有笑的洗了差不多一小時, 場面輕鬆。
的確, 穿上校服代表著作為學校的一份子, 是一件神聖同嚴肅的。起初我也不以為然, 到在學校再見這位學生穿上校服跟我問好時, 才發覺原來我也做了一件十分有意義的事呢。再想楊溥的督促也十分有道理, 在學校缺水要等到每星期回家才可以洗一次澡的境況下, 我不洗乾淨點一來不體面, 二來穿上髒兮兮的校服一星期真是苦了那位女孩。說到毅力,細心, 我倒要跟楊溥多多學習呢。後來呢, 我還有幫忙洗菜, 混一混水泥, 挷一挷鋼筋, 雖然幫不上忙, 但人家看到我拙劣地盡心盡力, 逗得人家一笑也不錯。
這趟旅程最可喜的是看到人們都從災難之中站起來了, 小學的校園小記者對我說地震的場景她仍是瀝瀝在目, 晚上睡覺時有大貨車經過發出隆隆的聲響也會驚醒, 立即跑到屋外。也在家訪時遇過災後變得內向的小孩, 又聽說過有學生在震後學習態度變得渙散。然而, 大部份的學生能在災後康復過來, 在空地上跑跑跳跳, 跟香港的小學生無異。看到這種場面, 身處災區的感覺也減卻了, 也是值得欣慰的地方。
遇到我們這些來自大哥哥大姐姐, 小朋友十分活潑, 拉著嚷著一起玩, 或許有時會玩得太激烈, 熱情得把我也推倒在地上, 他們都是會替人設想的, 會幫我拍拍身上的灰塵, 這便是小朋友們最真撃的關懷, 從他們間我感到被需要和珍惜。
當然, 這次旅程中也有碰壁的事情, 例如在談話中不小心勾起了一個退休老師的傷心回億, 不擅四川話跟村民溝通有點障礙, 其實只要盡力而為, 用心對待, 村民也會理解的。我想其實人與人的溝通不一定是言語上的, 有時我雖然聽不懂四川話也會報以微笑, 點頭, 甚至擁抱, 我想, 雖然村民也知道我未必聽得懂, 但這一些交流也是窩心的。
最後, 我在四川所遇過的人都是熱情而友善的, 在此我衷心感激在旅途上遇過的所有人, 駕車的司機, 映秀的蔡姐, 水磨的村民, 小學的學生, 食堂的嬸嬸, 社工站的楊玲等人, 來自西南財大的同學們, 當然還有共同進退多日的隊友們, 與他們共事的日子, 一切一切都會永遠記在心中。
September 28th, 2009
你讀什麼?
社會學。
即是什麼?
研究螞蟻的。
What do you study?
Sociology.
What’s it about?
A study of ants.
Don’t say it’s a depreciation to human, just that you don’t know to appreciate ants.
http://hk.news.yahoo.com/article/090915/4/e8l7.html
September 18th, 2009
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